Blah day...

Went to Joann's today and got the stuff for my final skirt. I'm so nervous I am going to mess it up I avoided it all day.
Rice and I cooked all evening. He starts the P90X program in the morning and we had to cook up a lot of the meals he will be eating all week. I am so proud of him...mush mush. He is going to be blogging about his experience here so check it out if you are interested in getting the "Average Joe's" perspective of the program!
We have had two goldfish casualties so far. One died in the bag before we got them in the tank yesterday and today there was a freak accident involving the intake valve on the filter. The poor little guy just couldn't get away from the suction I guess. So we are down to 18 goldfish now. I tested for ammonia today and it was at .25 so it is rising. YAY! Cycling has officially begun. I will be keeping a record of this sort of thing here so I know where we are at.
It was kind of a blah day...
This is the first image that came up when I googled "blah". I think it is a pretty good representation. Good night.

Valentine's Day

Got up and made a huge breakfast of banana pancakes, sausage and orange juice. Then we went out to gather all of the materials to get our 75 gallon tank set up again (we decided a couple weeks ago that this would be our gift to each other).We are using sand as our substrate this time around and it is so pretty already. I can't wait to get some new decorations. We have to cycle the tank from scratch this time so it will be about a month before we get our big fish. We put 20 goldfish in there to poop the place up so we can get the good bacteria started. I hope that none die but that is highly unlikely!

I finished my "practice" pencil skirt today. It took me FOREVER to get the right length for the hem and I had to do a slight alteration on the front darts--my first alteration ever!! It's definitely not perfect but I think it will totally be wearable. I'm going to get the denim fabric tomorrow for the "official" skirt. I will post a pic when I finish that.






After that I worked out, ate dinner, and took a bath. I am SOOOOO ready for bed! I had a great Valentine's Day. How was yours?

Written as myself

It started on the way home from the humane society. I was listening to Beyonce's new CD and I came upon a song called "Hello" and it hit me within 10 seconds of the start of the song. A small ball of nerves in my stomach, growing, growing. Moving upwards into my chest. Making me feel like my body is physically hurting. My throat tightens. The song ends but I need to hear it just one more time so I play it again. I have to feel this more, longer, my realest, truest self, the most beautiful and ugliest part of me. It has been awhile. The tears start to well up in my eyes, forming heavy tears that start to fall. I start to grip the steering wheel. I feel a sense of pride, anger, rage and strength wash over my body. I have harnessed the anger I keep inside and unlocked the strength mentally and physically that I feel would enable me to kill another human being. I yearn for a release. I fantasize of violence and destruction. I want to hurt everyone that has ever hurt me. This feels so good, thrilling and at the same time terrifying and terrible. I have so much love for this person inside. No one can EVER fucking touch me again. Where would I be in life without my anger. It drives me everyday to strive, succeed and do the things that scare me. So I put the song on repeat, curl up in a ball, clinch my fists, grind my teeth, tense my whole body, scream, moan, cry and experience these feelings. I am home now and Rice and Taison are on the way home right now so I know I don't have much longer. As soon as they pull in this will leave...until I am alone again. Goodbye.

Randomness

Hmmmm, I barely remember the last couple of days. I barely slept for three days in a row due to insomnia. It was terrible but I was able to take a four hour nap today and I feel better now. I hope I am able to sleep tonight.
My Mass XXX weight gainer seems to be working so far as I have been able to get in three hardcore workouts over the last three days--that I know burned a ton of calories-- and I don't seem to be losing any more weight.
I got a new pattern today for different skirts. It looks like it will be even easier than my first pattern so I am excited. I am going to be making a denim pencil skirt. I have never had a pencil skirt but have always wanted one and I have been told that every woman should have at least one soooooooo I'm going to make one! I decided to do a practice run first however on this 100% cotton plaid clearance fabric that I got for $2.00 to practice matching up prints/patterns (for future fabrics), and adjusting the fit if needed before I go drop money on the denim fabric.












I get to learn how to do darts and fusible interfacing on this pattern so I am pretty excited.
My brother Branch introduced me to a Firefox add-on called Stumble! a few weeks ago that enables you to effortlessly "stumble" around the web, landing on random pages linked to your interests. I love it!! I have seen some of the weirdest and coolest things since I became a stumbler. I stumbled onto this website almost immediately and have continued to go back since. It is a website for a band called The Cook Trio and showcases a play-list of what they call "Gypsy Jazz". I would never have guessed that I would get into this type of music but Taison and I love it and we have danced around our living room to this numerous times so far. Check it out!
Well I guess that is enough of my randomness for today. What random things have you been up to lately?

My weight gain goal continues...

On another note I am super excited about my new weight gainer. I got my body fat % taken the other day through the Navy and it was 15.4%. It is in the same category as guy having between 5 and 8%. If I get below 15% I am in the risky zone where health problems can start. Bottom line is even though I have been trying for months, I am not consistently getting enough calories everyday to support working out, breastfeeding, and having a SUPER high metabolism. So I broke down and got the weight gainer to supplement my diet. All I have to do now is eat about 2000 calories a day and the weight gainer shakes will give me the extra I need to get to 3000 (which is about what I seem to need right now) without feeling like my stomach is going to blow up or feeling like I am going to hurl if I look at any more food. I was beyond getting worried about my health as I was slowly starving and I was seriously starting to get some body image issues from being so skinny. I worked out hardcore today and I will now be able to get back in the swing of things so hopefully I can put on about 10lbs by this summer. Wish me luck!

It's done! It's done!!

I finally finished my dress and I actually think it might be wearable...YAY!! The only sucky thing about it is that I got a white zipper for it and it shows up REALLY bad so I might have to wear a little jacket over it if I go out and it is not the most figure flattering but it is SOOOOO comfy and the fabric is 100% cotton batiste so its going to be great for staying cool this summer. I learned so much stuff and I cannot wait to start on my next project which I think is going to either be a spring/summer top, a purse, or some lingerie. Okay now I am going to put on my lovely modeling shots. * HA! *

Had to start with the boring old full frontal lol

Somehow the fabric got stuck on my butt and it is making the zipper seem crooked but its not. It is SUPER noticeable though being WHITE. I'm such a tard.

And now I get a little saucier!! lol

Project #1 completed for $25. Stay tuned for more.

A day in the life of Aberiah

We got a free sample of this cereal in the mail this morning and I gobbled it up. I was so glad it came because I was thinking I couldn't handle another consecutive day of oatmeal with blueberries! It was pretty good and the only bad thing I can say about it was that every few bites I hit something yucky. It had nuts in it so I am guessing maybe there were some rancid nuts in there. The expiration date was March '09 so I have no idea how fresh it was. Definately check it out though even if it is just for something different.





Got ready some time this morning and went to Joann's with Taison. Got the fabric and notions for my dress. There were literally only nine different colors of the fabric I wanted and they were all plain so I just had to go with it. I do like the colors I got though...hopefully they look good as a dress! When we got home Taison and I went for a walk and hit up the playground for a few minutes. It was WAY too cold though so we came back inside. While Taison was taking his nap I worked on getting my fabric ready: preshrinking, truing, ironing. Stay tuned for the next step on that.













After Taison woke up I decided to get my workout on. I chose one out of an old Oxygen magazine I had, put on a great hip-hop playlist on YouTube, and got to sweating!












Taison did it with me for a little while but got bored so I had to turn on some Barney for him while I finished dying! It was intense and was super hard for my butt muscles. They need all the work they can get so I was pretty excited about that. This is us after the workout in the kitchen making our protein shake--YUM!


















Rice is home now and I am making some whole wheat bread. It has been a great day! How was your day? What is a day in your life like??