October!

October has come and I feel full of fall. I went out for my annual candy corn haul today and brought home all this.

The only one I'm missing is the bag that has all pumpkins. I don't really eat or crave much candy but there are a few important ones.

1. Candy Corn in October
2. Cadbury Creme Eggs in April
3. Heath bars year round, as needed 😉

I feel like life's been put on pause. I went to bed in a really low and dark place in my mind on Sunday night and haven't fully recovered yet I guess. Anyway, I just...kind of lost my motivation to do extra stuff so its been cut down to the basics and taking it easy. I've read a lot in the last two days and actually just finished my mystery book about an hour ago. (I'd give it a solid 3.5/5 ☆ and that's coming from someone who doesn't like reading mystery) I'm enjoying the weather, being cozy in my blankets and pajamas when I can, enjoying the silence of my house when I can, keeping my head down, and trying to do what I can to take care of myself until my mind comes back around to a better place. Definitely feeling kind of alone and unloved but I think that goes with the territory of being down so I try really hard not to pay much attention to it.
Right at this moment its kind of rainy and cloudy out, I've got this bowl of roasted potatoes, a little candy corn, I'm curled up into a bunch of pillows and blankets, and writing this here. What could be better than that? Huh? 😋

I'm on the last boss fight of the main story line in Witcher 3 this week! How long have I been playing that game? February? May? Idk. Long time though and it's been a GREAT game. Just wow.  I'm hoping to beat him this week and will start a new game on Friday. I'm sure I'll say more on that another day.

I've been poking around in political stuff a little and decided I'd like to learn a little more about what our president has to say for himself so I started listening to Crippled America: How to Make America Great Again by the one and only Donald Trump. Ah, look at that sour face. I can't look at it too long or I get disturbed. Lol Let me just say that whoever made the decision to have someone else be the voice for this audiobook deserves a gold star because Trump does the introduction and I didn't think I could make it through an entire four hours of him yelling and spitting at me. There's a lot of bragging, chest pounding, bashing, and back patting going on but I kind of expect that kind of thing from Mr. Trump at this point. In between all of that is a clear message about each issue and I'm learning exactly where he stands; something I think I would never get from watching the news.

Its time for me to get ready for work so I'll be going but I'll leave you with a quote about a little thing called hope; sometimes we lose it, sometimes it feels really good, sometimes its all we have, and sometimes it gets crushed. Let's keep grinding, k?

"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope."
-Martin Luther King, Jr.