Dated 8-28-07

So here I am sitting in my Stress Management class waiting for the professor to enter. How ironic. I wonder if I am the most stressed out person in Stress Management. Maybe, maybe not. I was stressed when I woke up. I stressed about leaving my baby, traffic , time. I'm stressed about coming to Stress Management class! I stress and worry about EVERYTHING! Shall I disclose my crazy ways to the class. We will see how this first day goes. I really hope this class can help me because I am one very tired human being. I could be a spokesperson for stress.

Ha! Now my professor is late for the first day and I am stressing about that. Plus! We have to introduce ourselves. Aaaagh!! I'm having the fight-or-flight response and boy would I like to "flight".

So it is about six in the morning and I just woke up. My first thought is that I can't take this anymore. I just do not want to be here anymore. This does not mean that whoever reads this should call the suicide hot-line. Just chill out a second. I have a baby so I can't do that. By the way, isn't it crazy that when you talk about suicide(just talking) people want to jump in and start criticizing you for even thinking about that and how it would make everyone else feel. These are good points but think for a second. Does this person who is fantasizing about suicide as an escape really need to have the extra pressure of those things on his/her shoulders. It makes it worse! Now add guilt to your repertoire. Well, I have to go to class. These are just some of my thoughts this Thursday morning. Have a GREAT day! lol